Yes I can be violent and yes I like to fight, but I will never get away with dismembering a person until their demise out in the world.  And to tell you the truth that is not what my violent gift is for and was never for.  I have learned it was not put within me to do harm, it’s an energy for me to use to do good and it’s only arena is to be within me, wrestling and tearing apart the indoctrinations of self hate, the systems of people hate.  Every moment I am conscious and even in my sleeping hours I travel the landscapes of my bombed mind and find thought constructs that are trying to hide and hijack me.  I find the false hoods and smash their brains out with my gift of ferocity, I find them and choke them , dismember them and leave them torn apart.  Then I shout to my soul ‘IT’S SAFE NOW BE YOUR WONDERFUL SELF IN THE WORLD’.


Relaxing your whole body and ordering your mind to disregard everything but the moment you are in, is literally an instant cure to depression.  When your consciousness is only focused on your breathing and anatomical workings, the slow crushing of shame and worry stops.  The constriction subsides and your blood flow becomes freed, now all you can hear is the wonderful symphonic poetry of you.  This truth kisses your heart and your soul dances in gratitude, the power is free and in your own hands.  Thoughts have effect, yes, but your present ability to be alive has a truth that allows consciousness of that fact.  The easy ability to make the junk food of effect an insult to your life and a useless annoyance, thoughts are a shit puppeteer.  Consciousness of my wonderful workings as an anatomy, magically turns johnny from a manipulated reactionary doll into a wonderful curious boy again ………

My mind is back to what it is meant for, and my heart is back in tune….AL HAMDU LILLAH

YOU are just like me

When weak I have sought out rivals I thought were powerful, so I could outwit and crush them and use their destruction to empower me.  I was like a vampire that used violence to suck from them what I needed to feel strong.

Today I know that the whole useless process and constant need for it only compounded how weak I was.  I turned inward and fought my warped sense of weakness with facts.  Facts that I am made of nothing but strength and wonders and everyday that I get to open my eyes I pay my respects to the ensemble.

I am working in wonderful balance and harmony to allow me life.  I am friends with my micro and macro self, am amazed at how I am put together and how every atom of me has an amazing will to keep me realised.  I am far from alone and far from weak…. I am a wonder..and YOU are just like me.


Sitting down with two babies, one with head on left shoulder the other with head on right shoulder is the best feeling of being in the company of loving angels.  I always sit very still and enjoy the warmth of their little lives.  I’ll enjoy every moment that they choose to be generous in sharing with me because as they grow into their own journeys, this will all fade away and I will only have this time as a memory.  Being a father of many children, I am well aware that we lose our children quickly to the process of growing up.  I will mourn the loss of my babies as I journey into being with them as teenagers and if I’m blessed with old age, young men and women.


Be very careful about taking serious the kind of people that are looking for love.  They don’t see you, they are only interested in the feeling of love their ego gets from your attention.  As soon as they feel you are not constantly massaging their egos, these damaged people will look for another servant.  People that are not looking for love but are loving will have the ability to love with out demanding a reciprocation.  These people are the gems of life it is YOU they love, not the sensation.  Commanding love is far more honourable than demanding it and they deserve to be honoured, which is the highest response to love.


If you are a child that comes from a home with issues and maybe one struggling parent, plus processed cheap rancid foods that destroy the liver and you have been sent to school where your intelligence is assessed with exams, from an early age, the chances of you scoring high with such issues are very slim.  Polluted bodies and minds can’t perform well, this structure introduces the child to judgment from an early age.  How is the child to connect their lack of performance with their lack of average human privileges and nutrition , not to mention the right parental attention and connection.  Instead the child looks at the adults making it clear their intelligence is not up to scratch and believes that.  Is it any wonder the childs sense of self worth is shot to pieces and they will seek self worth OUT SIDE OF THIS STRUCTURE THAT DECONSTRUCTS THEM in other ways, most time easy access self worth like crime.

All the media does then is bombard us with the image of these so called fruit gone bad, when all along it was their shitty root of the problem that created this disaster in the first place.  TELL THE FUCKING TRUTH!!!!

Build a childs self worth based on great manners and self gratitude, for at least the first seven years, through play and cooperation plus free organic school dinners, then lets see how they score.



The Jews and the Palestinians are being used to occupy each other while another entity is taking advantage of their distraction and ours.  While that entity is busy robbing the land of more resources, all conflict is misdirection.  While the rich continue their parasitic and life hating antics, they have found out through their over indulgence very quickly that nothing is helping their insatiable misery.  So knowingly or subconsciously they want their misery to have company.  Their house is not a home, so they want us homeless, their issues don’t allow them to love their children the way it is supposed to be, so they poison us to the degree we can’t give our children the love they deserve and our children carry on the same symptoms.  Life has become a mirror to them and all they see is life don’t like them.  So they want life dead.  The rich are not greedy, they are suicidal and they have the power to act out their Tourette’s.  While we are in it’s harms reach, these peoples hubris is hungry for some sort of sense of power.  They blame the creator for their emotional prison, they hate their creators position, the ego is so insane that it feels the only safe place is to become god.  They try to “create”, but find themselves dictated to by the laws of physics, so instead of running shit, they merely have been allowed.  So they opt to be destroyers, this is how they feel power.  But I have some bad news, they have merely been allowed to destroy, because that takes physics too.  Unity of all people is the only way to stop , capture and treat these mad people.  The more we don’t master the organics that purify and fortify the human, the more time we will sit in this lunacy.  We need to live the shifa then invite the sick to the medicine.  We know through practice and flourishing works , may our faces shine with the life we thrive in and may we broadcast it and share it with all.  wa ALLAHU ALIM


Listen fighters, feints are also a weapon.  Your opponent needs a rhythm in their anatomy to execute a blow.  You can interrupt the making of a blow with a feint, making them pull back a blow and switch to a defence pattern.  Now if you keep feinting their brain will tell them nothing happens, at this point they will anticipate a feint.  It is here you give them a real blow.  You have now pulled them into major issues with your rhythm , not knowing what is fake from real.  What you have in front of you now is a mind computer in confusion and thus fear, complete shut down is eminent.  Being confused is the beginning of getting beat, being the confuser is the beginning of giving the beating.  OSU


I will not feel strange about how I let my heart fill up with love and gratitude about being around good people, even if I have only met them for a day or two, sometimes only a few hours.  Even though I have a wonderful family, I still have room in my heart to feel sad when I have to leave my new friends and I still miss them for a long time after.  This happens to me all the time, and I like this about me.  Even though the people I get attached too find it a little strange.

“i see your strength fam”

When a kid gets mad when you look at them, it’s because they think you see them.  They don’t want you to see their fears and their pain, because of fear.  Now is your chance to communicate with a soul that has chosen you to give clues to, that they need healing.  Here is a tool when a kid looks at you like “WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT?”, answer like this…”I see your strength fan”.