Had a nice rest, tomorrow I am back on my grind.  I missed it, still a bit foggy, afraid , confused at times, numb, tired, grumpy, short temper, but I also have experience not to act on how I feel.  It’s chemical and will pass, haha.  Ignorance is a c@nt that will no longer keep me in the STD of confusion.  I know myself b%&ch and my rhythms.  So everybody is safe from me, thank god.