The greatest thing in my life, is to feel and know I prefer to love, that is a massive break through, and a fantastic victory to finally identify myself by this amazing ability that is inside of me and not the brute that I felt I had to learn to be.  I molested the innocence I was with violence, fear of being hurt, the justification that deformed my beauty only to realize after all these years love has always been there fresh as ever waiting to become my reality again.  I thank my children and their mothers, and all the people like Barrie Sharpe that cared enough and were brave enough to challenge me to be higher than the prowling killer I can stoop to.      OSU